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Wednesday, September 3, 2008

OLW challenge

i finally put all assignments and deadlines aside and scrapbooked for myself tonight - it was actually kind of nice - the OLW blog challenges always seems to get me in this serious DEEP mood and i can get some of my feelings of my chest and on to paper - this has been bugging me for a while and it was good to just get it out. The word was CHOOSE. I used mostly the August kit from Label Tulip - the rubon letters and the acrylic border are Fancy Pants Designs - and i used my threading water punch for the first time - i know its old news but I LOVE IT!

Here is the journaling because i know its hard to read.

I hope one day that your stubborn personality will come in handy and you will “choose” life. Right now at 5 you are struggling with the fact that you have Cystic Fibrosis and your siblings don’t. You want to know why and how – life just isn’t fair. Every time we have to do treatments it’s a fight – you scream, yell, cry – want to know why you have to wear the vest and feel like it’s the end of the world. I feel like a horrible mom – I finally stooped where I said I never would and told you that if you didn’t do your treatment you would live in the hospital for a very long time and that you could die………I really had good intentions – I only wanted you to understand that I never want that to happen and that I want you to be as strong and healthy as you can so that we can be together as long as possible. I know one day – your stubbornness will help you get through the challenges in life and that you won’t let it get you down – hopefully right now its just a phase – and its my job as your mom to just love you while you go through it.

Okay enough of that - since school has started I was really dreading the early mornings with treatment and for the last 2 days he's done really well - so keep your fingers crossed! Thanks for stopping by!

13 comments:

Nicole said...

wonderful layout with beautiful journaling Brenda! keeping my fingers crossed for you girl.

Dustin & Joni said...

Wow, that is a darling layout, and I just cried when I read your journoling! Go Brenda, you are the best!

careymc said...

Man, I miss you. It's been fun catching up on your blog. Liam's PCMC appt. is this Monday. Want to grab a Conoco treat on Sunday (my treat, of course...I don't want you going down because of my sinful ways...). Let me know! I'll have my cell w/me...

Becky said...

WOW.
What a great layout, you will be so glad that you did this layout, and so will he.
You are super mom!
*smooches*
B-

Karie Coats said...

Geeze Brenda, I had a lump in my throat reading this layout! He's a fighter, no worries! We love you!

Andrea Amu said...

Beautiful page and journaling! Love the colors! What a struggle it must be for yourself and for your son in dealing with the everyday challenges that CF brings! My heart goes out to you both, and you must both be awfully strong!

laura vegas said...

beautiful journaling brenda ... straight from the heart. i can't even imagine how hard it must be for him ... and for you. keeping you both in my thoughts.

Nick & Kerrie Andrews & Family said...

Hi Brenda, I don't know if you remember me from school.. (Kerrie Taylor) I also grew up with Dean.. I came across your blog through a friends. I love all the great ideas you have and all the fun layouts! The journaling was so touching.. You guys are amazing!

Amy Peterman said...

Beautiful layout Brenda. And your journaling ... so real and beautiful.

Staci said...

Oh wow, Brenda, what an AMAZING layout!! What a difficult thing for you all to go through, but I think your attitude is awesome, and I'm sure it will rub off on your son after time! It's nice to scrap just for ourselves, sometimes, isn't it?? Hope you're having a good weekend!

Lora said...

Brenda. I got your blog from Carey. It was so good to read this post and realize that I'm not the only one out there dealing with this right now! Gracie is 5 also and is having real issues coping with CF right now. Hard times. I'm excited to be able to keep in touch! Our blog is http://bonham6.blogspot.com

Til said...

Awesome Layout Brenda! My fingers are crossed!

Miss you over at TSB, hope you poke on in now and again!

Tafoya Family said...

Hey Brenda,
This is our new blog spot just started it so be patient. Love yours though you have some really great ideas.
http://jhkktafoyafamily.blogspot.com/
Love,
Heather